29/07/06 Saturday

hmm... Slacked ard in the morning coz there was noth much to be done. Chatted wif vickie online. Thanks to her, she occupied me wif sth to do for the whole afternoon. haha... Juz helping her out in her vb project bah... Didn't expect myself to finish it coz i didn't even learn how to connect to a access .mdb database before manx. I onli connected to a SQL database b4. haha... Watever it was i wanted to take up the challenge no matter wat. haha... maybe that's me bah. Neva giv up on things. Yeh manx... haha... i succeeded bah. But after that i wonder why i kept on laughing... Keep on smiling to myself. Till the extent that vickie say she wanted to send me to somewhere... Erm... i am ok la... haha... Juz overjoyed that's all. haha.. I think onli myself will noe the reason behind.

Went to cut my hair after tt. Damned thick liao... AFter that was a one person dinner meal wif satays and wantons... haha... Ate when i watched shi zhi lu kou bah... Coz i knew tt the food on shi zhi lu kou will confirm make me hungry. haha...

30/07/06 Sunday

Back to work again today. Went quite late bah.. coz of some reasons. Quite a lot of things to remember. Coz it's been a long time since i last did cashier liao. LOL... My phone is being bombed wif messages today. haha... Thanks to the updates on the school's national day rehearsal. Gonna reply all tmr. Real tired today. The morning was not bad bah. In fact for the whole day was quite ok.. The crowd was quite smooth. But was not used to the position of counter 2. I always do things slower in counter 2. If anyone realised tt. I rather do counter 1. The position is more correct leh. haha... RP kept saying tat when he get pay he wans to go for a food massage? haha.. .LOL... Tired meh? Maybe juz got used to it liao.. haha.. Lunch was wif vickie and RP. The reaction on vickie's face was like so weird again when she found out tt RP joining us. haha.. maybe erm... i admit feels a bit weird if u eat a meal wif a total stranger. haha...

Afternoon was damned busy as was flooded wif queues. haha... PAcked non stop again and i juz wasn't in the correct position in counter 2. haha.. vickie said counter 2 can "看门"? oh pls... i rather do counter 1. haha.. No la.. maybe any counter also can. Juz can work can liao. Dinner was juz wif vickie as RP say he wanna go zi you huo dong? weird... went to mac. Then suddenly received sms frm vickie askin for curry sauce when i was waiting for our food. haha.. I NOE LA.. we hav been fighting over curry sauce for like dunno how many times. in fact everytime we go mac. Everytime she will ask me not to take my curry sauce. Think in the end i will always eat chilli sauce wif fries. 礼让精神

Damned happy today. For these two days, my mood seems pretty good eh... haha.. i still thinkin why. No one enlighten me also. Today cashier was exact also. wat a beautiful day. haha...

Been writing a song named "结局". hmmm... should be posting soon in a couple of days liao.. haha...

Wanted to sleep late today as i didn't have to go for work today actually. hmm... thanks to my mum. Woke me up at 9. hahaa... Juz to go to the polyclinic to see the doc. hmm... she hav been wanting me to see the doc for a referral to the Skin Centre. So had to go tampines today. haiz... Realli felt like slackin. Nvm bah... Tmr still got one more slacking day. But i still nid to work on my FYP presentation. Still haven't start yet. Nid to work on it soon. After getting the referral letter to NSC, went for the travel jab. haha... yep.. goin to hong kong soon for a holiday in september i guess. Muhahaha...

Did noth much in the afternoon except to sleep. 2 hours of sleep. Seems so refreshed now... Juz prepared for a brand new day.. haha...

It's been days since i last posted. haha... I actually didn't wan such a short post in my previous entry. But i realli didn't noe wat to write. It was a whole list of troubles that i juz can't understand. Think the chinese paragraph below show explain some stuffs. Nothin much was done in the morning. Juz slacked and watched Lu Guang Shen Ling. Erm... till disc 9 liao? Not that slow bah. At a good speed liao. Think should be able to finish it quite fast. Juz nid a couple of days. Got off days tmr and sunday. muhahaha...

Went for work late today. 3pm. haha... It was actually an off day for me. But thought that they nid people to hang up the posters. Yep, so went back for work today. Met RP 2.15 at the control station. His first day of work. LOL... I think it went quite smoothly though. I have been quite busy these two days wif multi media stuffs i think. From packing, wrapping and all the way till hanging up photos. Guess that incident realli changed a lot of stuffs. I dunno why i hav an idea that workin life nowadays is much more different from the days before. hmm... The atmosphere was like so different. Weird... I juz nid a couple more days to understand bah. Throw rubbish at nite. haha.. .Throw until forgot all the cartons. Am i realli tt blur liao? hmm...

烦

这种感觉不是自己想要的
好烦 好无奈
这是自己吗?
回忆起从前自己小时候
当时的感受 并不是现在的矛盾
这又是为什么
旁人的眼力 是判断不出我的感受
虽然那次心里的麻醉消失了
但我是否该再次的麻醉自己
不告诉他们
逃避的一切 是否再次的把自己隐藏起来
也许我因该 开心的工作
忘记一切的不是
但 我做得到吗?

现在的心情 只有一个字能形容 乱

hmm... didn't blog yesterdae coz was quite busy wif stuffs. haha... woke up today a little bit earlier than before. Wanted to clear all the work that i have. Stressed all the way through till noon. Was in my colleague's cube when RP and his team called me for lunch. I was like askin them on which place to eat then meet them lata coz i still got some work to finish off. They say dun ask? Was like HUH... OK... So put aside wat i am doing and met them on the 1st level. Didn't ask where we were goin. Juz went straight to call for a cab. wahahaa... Juz one person who dunno where he is goin. Then heard Jerald saying dunno wat hotel. hmm.. then i knew it liao... going for buffet which means quite ex liao. haha... and indeed it was. Very...

The stuffs are not quite a lot though. JUz liked the cakes and my colleagues called it cai fan? hmm... maybe coz i mixed all stuffs together. Was like damned full once i finished everything. Went back to office and solved all troubles within 30 mins. haha.. Guess it's becoz of the refilled energy to work. hmm... Harnam treated me to starbucks coffee. hmm.. I think i realli should thank my colleagues that guided me through.

I was quite free then after 3 plus and juz rested around. Packed everything and went off at 5.30. Coz there was realli noth much that i can do.


只是想说

这次的我 坚决地做了决定
决对不会像上次一样礼让
虽然 现在离你的距离很远
但是 我希望在你遇到困难时
你会在转眼间 看到我
因为 不管在任何情况下
我不想再次的看到你受到任何的伤害
但是 现在的我
好想带你去一个地方… 但可以吗?

无际的苦恼

我已做了决定
还记得两年前 望到你的第一眼瞬间
眼前的你 就好像是一个陌生人
那时候的我 并不清楚眼前的图案
但我唯一知道的是 你已喜欢上了

时间就这样过着
或许 我认为自己只能帮上一个像课本的忙
一直不停的帮助你
在我当时度假的时候
窗外的风 就迎着我吹着
收到的消息 就是你已和他在一起
无助的我只能送上祝福
这种感觉已发生了两次

我一再的 一再的试着麻醉自己
试着爱上另一个女孩
但我知道这并不是自己要的
谈着 谈着
我就这样不知不觉的了解了你
也开始像骑士般守候着你
但心里的话决对不能说出口
告诉自己只能把你像妹妹看待

当他做了了断时
你也不停的诉说着你的痛苦
自己也觉得非常难受 但无能为力
望着你不愉快的日子 我竟了力把你的过去找回来
但知道自己不成功

那一刻的我 好想就这样守候着你
但是 自己将在一年里进兵
别人总说 一定会改变自己
所以为了不伤害你 我把想说的话藏了起来

就这样一个月已过
这样隐瞒的日子 并不好过
那天的你 让我说出了一切
问了自己是否犯了错
但自己知道 好想一直这样守护着这颗星

Finally i am back to post. wahhaha... It's been some days since i last posted. Countless days. Guess a lot of stuffs happened in the past few days but dun think i am goin to elaborate them. hahaha... Think today is the first day i am back to myself after finishing my reports. I think those people who saw me in the past few days can see me damned stress wif my FYP report. Finally it's over. It's time to celebrate? Dun think so. I still have my presentation to do. Which means that i will have to work on a powerpoint presentation. Woke up @ 8 in the morning to compile and bind my report together. Had to do some last minute work coz i finished at 2am yesterdae. Can't take it and went to sleep. It's been a dae of queue fighting on sunday till i was damned tired. Think i gonna have my 8 hours sleep tonight finally. Think i captured some thoughts on my bus trip today. Some nice ones this time. LOL..

The rain started pouring once i reached sch at 10. Been a long time since i last came back to school. Lots of changes and it's like a new environment. Met RP and packed everything inside an envelop for submission. Realised that a lot of people juz binded all their work together. hahaa... Went to Holland V for fast food after that coz it's shun lu?

Everyone was like left for lunch when i reached office. hmm... Not used to starting work at 12. But i did nothing much today. Maybe it's because this is my last week and i shouldn't be touching on a lot of stuffs. Gonna bring back some stuffs these few days or else i nid bring a traveler's bag there liao? haha... Juz realised that there seems loads of stuffs.

Left office at 6.10 and my frens asked me to sing the lian ai-ing while Rp went on drums while Reggie went on guitar? haha... juz for fun bah. But can almost say that it's perfect? LOL... Not bad la... Ate at the famous chicken rice stall after that . hmm.. forgot wat it is called but it's famous. Not bad bah. Nice food. haha... Played some pool and went back home at 9.30. Realised that this paragraph is short? haha... guess my eyes closing soon. Nid some sleep. Signs off.

--这无际的苦恼或许只是左右为难--

woke up at 8 and immediately turned on the com to check the score for the italy-germany world cup match. haha... And also turned on some music while preparing myself for work. hmm... i seem to be going over the same routine over and over again. LOL... I should be free after 4 August depending on when is my presentation. Gosh... wat to present. hmm... Took the train to work and damned sleepy. Was working on my report when i had a sudden pain on my head. Guess that is the consequenses of not enough sleep for several days. There was nothing much i could do today except to work on my report. 10000 words. and now i onli reached like 1/10 of it. Went for lunch at 12 and ate prawn noodles wif chopped chilli? Chillis wif lunch will always make up one of the best meals. haha...

Went back after lunch to continue working on my report. Guess i was damned stress. Then there was a sharp pain on my head liao. Haiz... Thanks to vickie, made it even worse. LOL... still ask me to guess stuffs. I was on brink of guessing it right. In fact i hav already got it right. Thanks to her la... Divert my attention. Argh... Nvm... But dunno why instead of making the pain sharper, she sort of made me less stressed. Thanks la... haha... hmm... can't find any nice blog skins to use. How i hope i hav photoshop to create one nice blog skin. But too bad, i dun hav that. Next time bah.

03 July

Working day today bah. Was quite free today coz i didn't get to install the softwares and thus i can't realli do my work. Haiz... And so time was like passing slow? Searched for some interesting article on asp stuffs. haha... then realised that i have to submit my FYP report on 17th which is juz like one or two weeks away? And looked at the number of words was like so shocking. Realli gonna test my typing speed liao. haha.. 10000 words. Yes... Ten thousand words. Gosh... Muz realli start typing. Everytime i blog is abt 300 words? hmmm 10000? Gosh... Gonna be nightmare. hmm... Tot thru abt the defination of dream in the morning when reformatting the desktop. Are dreams realli what we think too much in the day? Or sometimes they are nightmares? There might be no right or wrong answers. 梦里, 是否能看到问题的解决方法? 或者只是自己的一种想法?

02 July

Alarm rang at 7am in the morning. haha... Have to go for milk run 2006. Reached zouk quite late bah, have to change bus at douby ghaut. Heard on the way there, that lots of members hav already reached liao. There was noth much to do in the morning, except to stay in zouk for the air con. But before that, shifted some stuffs from the vehicles. hmm... loads of balloons were blown. there muz be 500 balloons by 11.30? But in the end there wasn't any more gas in the tank. So stopped at 300. Not bad le bah. Walked ard the area and shouted a lot juz like the rehearsal last time. But even if i shout, can't even go far. Went to collect lunch for the performers coz was one of the in charge. Guess there were realli loads of changes ard. I didn't hav the time to eat breakfast and lunch. I haven't eaten anything since the seoul garden yesterdae. But weird, wasn't realli hungry. Busy people can't feel hunger? LOL... The busiest peak period was during the parade. Have to form barriers to block part of the crowd. Reminds me of the times of sch concerts. haha... Gonna add "a pair of sunglasses" to my wishlist manx. Sometimes my eyes juz can't stand it. Was onli free after the parade ended. Think the job overall was juz ok bah. Went off at 5 but was quite tired. Remembered that i told my mum that i am not goin home for dinner. So reached home, had a good shower and went to compass to join pop peeps for dinner.

Reached there and saw vickie and oi lian at counter 2. Vickie's reaction was like damned weird when she saw me. HAHA... Juz like seeing alien walk by? DOTS... Passed oi lian the cd and her craps started coming in again. Even called greg lao gong? And the way she call me was like hair can stand. haha... Decided to eat KFC coz was like so long neva eat le? Zinger was damned nice. Didn't even talk when i was eating. Damned hungry wif the food. Concentrate on eating. hehe... Went back to pop after that to get my mouse for my desktop. hmm... and of coz back home to prepare for tomorrow's work.

My automatic waking up mode is on in the morning. Slept at 3am yesterdae but woke up at 9? That's like onli 6 hours of sleep? Tot that i could hibernate today but i juz couldn't go to sleep at 1am. haha... Well, sometimes stuffs can juz be unexpected. Seems like i can't hav 8 hours sleep tmr as well. I muz wake up at 7 to prepare for milk run 06. Went straight online for some time in the morning to wait for 11.30 to come. Tot that i didn't wan to eat anything, but in the end got asked to eat red bean pau. Luckily that's juz a small one. hahha... coz gonna meet pop peeps for seoul garden. Long time since i eat a buffet sia. Been hearing my colleagues saying abt buffets but juz didn't get the chance to eat buffets for a long time. Took LRT to compasspoint and i tot tt i will be the first to reach... But in the end NO? Anida, Vickie and Li wei already there liao. Maybe Rabbits can be late sometimes lar. But i wasn't the onli one that they are waiting for. That sounds better. hmm... duncan, oi lian and choy teng nt there yet. The trip to City Hall.. hmm... can say talkin abt photos that were taken yesterdae? haha... sensored stuffs sia. I think my energy level was quite low liao at that time. Due to the accumulated lack of sleep. haha... I was damned quiet today manx. Didn't talk much. But they sort of increased my energy level bah. Wif loads of craps. Then started walking to seoul garden at marina. Was wearing the Italy jersey today wif the number 7 behind. hmm...Soccer fans should noe who is number 7? Then Li wei was saying how to pronounce the name? hmm... Then vickie said ALIEN??? Erm... Thanks manx. Although i am in BLUE, but i am no alien. haha... The seoul garden buffet lunch today was abt 23 bucks. Reasonable for a weekend lunch? I dunno bah. Once in a while is juz fine. YEp.

hmm... yep so started eating. Guess i was the onli one who was eating from the start to the end continously. Maybe seoul garden once in a while is juz nice. haha... The soup base was quite nice also bah. Ginseng Chicken? But i think for the extra soup based we are charged extra bah. But since 4 people in one table so quite worth it. We were HIGH still the extend that we made fried noodles and fried rice. But was quite nice actually sia. It's sth to do wif the burnt taste. While me continued eating, they started snapping pictures ard. haha... Their ways of posing in pictures can be real weird till the extend of being sensored. LOL... Haiz... dunno why i keep kicking the chairs beside me whenever i get out of my chair. Pop peeps said i yesterdae drink a bit of vodka haven't recover. LOL... We finished at ard 3.30 bah. After we passed the farewelll presents to li wei. i will need to leave for work at 4 while they are going to watch movie at PS. Maybe i think i missed loads of fun. Saw some cvss people at marina also when i was juz coming out of the toliet. Erm... Think was nancy, kelly,... etc... haha...

Left marina and went to work at 4. Was sleeping on the train. Wif my accumulated lack of sleep i juz hoped that i can concentrate on the cashiering today and i think i did. Phew... There wasn't much people also bah. No one opened up my counter to my surprise. Maybe not much people so no one open? haha... Nothin much happened as i was at counter 3 today? Alone? hmm... Then the funny incident came. Blur doris. I was coming out frm the office. Then she said JX went home coz of sickness? Was like stunned? I still there? and GAN funny, said that she haven't recover from yesterdae's drunkness. LOL... Mopped a bit of the floor and went off alone. hmm... Was thikin abt this phrase that i tot when i was walkin back...

心里想要的那样物品 到底在哪间便利商店找的到

Was damned stunned when i reached work today. I can't boot up the laptop. hmm... Weird sia. Tot was quite ok yesterdae. Gave the laptop back to my colleague and went back to my work. Took another laptop out to install the stuffs bah. haha... How will life be without the internet. LOL... The prob has been solved. With that prob, i didn't sleep well last night. My mind was filled wif the probs. I am probably one person that tries my best to solve my errors? hehe... Heard from RP that he wanted to go buona vista to help cindy solve some dreamweaver probs? At first tot was quite lazy, didn't feel like goin far and the weather was like damned hot as well. But in the end still went. Curry chicken and rice for lunch. Not bad bah. In claypot somemore. Ice lemon tea to quench thirst. Damned thirsty. Went to 7-11 also to buy one bottle of snapple as well. On offer, $1.50 sia. Apple flavour. DUnno why nowadays i prefer apples. Went to cindy's workplace after that to help solve her probs. Thanks to reggie for telling me abt the flash programming job. But dun think i wan take up bah. Wanna continue my job at POP, since i already told them that i will be back to work ard august. Yep. MRT back to tiong bahru and walked back to office. And then the desktop failed on me. HAIZ... WTH sia. No choice. TOld my colleague and think monday then can solve liao. haha... no choice. Left office early then. Go home to relax after a tough week. But beginning to like this tempo.

Was online when i reached home before preparing to go for the chalet at downtown east. Juz realise that i goin to hav a busy weekend as well. 01/07 work @ pop 02/07 Milk Run 2006. haha... actually wanted to go to the doctor tmr. But too busy. Next week ba. Went compasspoint to meet up pop peeps at ard 9.20. Had to wait till everything was ready b4 we could even leave. Then oi lian started her craps. Say wat 6 of us. Then can split into two by two? haiz... Didn't listen to her craps la. Juz sat a single seat on the bus. Onli reached chalet at ard 11. Late sia. We were damned noisy until the guards came and gave us warnings. Imagine the noise that was made? WOW... All damned high. Drank a bit of vodka though i am sensitive to alcohol. hehe... Still ok now bah. Dunno if tmr will be ok. Should be ok la... Didn't eat much bbq food as well. Quite full after my dinner. Des showed a video that was done. Reminds me of my sch video award days when my team submitted video for competition. he done a good job bah. not bad. Took a cab back home wif alfred and li wei. Then alfred was like talkin abt dreams? o.0 haha... Made me think some bits as well. And li wei told tt she's also sensitivity. Gonna go to bed now. Damned tired.