hmm... quite boring today. It's another working day. Did several transfers in the morning. Kian Min also called me today sia for transfer of books to TN. He's working at TN now. haha... Didn't even noe that it's him at the 1st place on the phone. He suddenly said that he's calling from TN. Then i asked "你是谁啊?" haha... Then i noe. Ordered takeaway food frm sakura for lunch today. Seafood fried rice. Quite nice sia. But i think the chicken fried rice was better. Erm.. muc darker and more egg?

Had headache in the afternoon over how to arrange the books. It's like so many new books wif high quantities. hmm... no choice... had to stack books. am not ard for more than 10 days. haha.. wonder how the dept will change when i am back. Realli noth much to be done today. Went ard packing some books, the shelves are quite tidy.

Tmr colleagues sayin they wan go pizza hut eat. But dunno true a not. It's always cancelled at last min. haha... Then after that goin bukit timah to meet az, reggie and vic. So guess will be home late. Wonder if i will blog. It's a very early flight on saturday sia. Muz wake up like abt 5.30 or 6? i think 5.30.

It's the eve of teacher's day celebrations. SImilar to last year, i dun think i will be goin back to my sec sch for the celebrations. haha... workin tmr. Well, i guess nothin much happened today. Been some time since i worked retail. haha... Erm... i still dunno wat dept i was in today. Shifted lots of things in the morning due to the pipe leaking maintenance. gosh... all the cartons are like wet. and can imagine how dirty the water is. Sigh... Stayed in the receiving room after that coz there wasn't anyone there until like 2pm. hmm... Stream wrapping dept. haha... In an hour, stream wrapped abt 10+ boxes of books. Damned hot.

Erm... after my lunch, did some stocks coz the receiving room was like damned full. Did stocks for my next schedule's dept. haha... LOL... Finally i am like havin a dept. haha... That lasted till abt 4. Pushed the stocks outside and started arranging them. Muz say that i am still not that rusty at arranging books bah. But... i am juz rusty at wrapping gifts. haha... luckily KY hav some skills of wrapping. I nid to revise my skills. And i will haha... The queues started to form ay abt 6 plus. hmm... Cleared the queues and wondered how come the queues disappeared in 15 mins. Looked back and i think gan opened the counter at the back. then there was the long queue there... haha... From this, can see that lots of people are buying gifts for teachers.

Stayed in T&A at nite bah. Coz choyteng went off early. Packed the department. onli managed to pack the tables. Tmr gonna pack the shelves. Quite a lot of stuffs to do tmr. I nid to familiarise wif the dept as well asap. Did so many stuffs today and i still felt refreshed. Tmr will be another day of work. hmm... then friday will be goin out. haha...

Woke up to the travel conversation that my parents and aunties are having. Actually i am quite a light sleeper? When some people are talkin beside me, i can juz open my eyes and wake up. Well, there are some advantages and disadvantages as well. Advantage is that hmm... will mostly wake up on time. Disadvantage? hmm... can't realli sleep on bus if i am realli tired. Ate chicken rice for lunch and then went to the ica building at lavendar. Prepared two hours before my reporting time for the awards nite. hmm... so yep. left house @ 1.30. Took a train to potong pasir and changed to bus 107.

Reached school and was like late liao. 3.40pm to be exact. Went to the convention and PSP was juz nice goin to set up follow-spot liao. LOL... today we were told to run the show sia. Important task sia. Imagine all the pressure. I was in the control room. So it's like the timings of the lights and music are partly on me. But it's quite a nice job though. We were like crapping a lot also. Multi-tasking... that's wat i always do. Three things at one go. Watching-Listening to cue-bit of crapping. haha... All went very smoothly sia. Quite a good job done. phew... no mistakes muz be made.

Had a sumptous dinner sia. Had a great buffet. the food was like WOW... There's chocolate fondae, peking duck, satay, tiramisu , choc cream cake, popiah and so much more sia. Went for like so many rounds. haha... Tmr gonna get back to work again. Not doing cashier tmr. It's juz days away to my holidays. LOL...

Finally my rest dae has arrived today. haha... got the chance to sleep early. BUT... Thanks to all the drillings ard i can't sleep. Resorted to the idea of counting sheeps... nah... haha! juz kidding. If i do that, i think i will not be sleeping instead? erm... i will be like eyes wide open and imagining how many sheeps had went by? and given the noise, i am like counting sheeps near a construction side in an open field. LOL... Went online for a while to surf ard. Watched jay's "千里之外" mtv yest. hmm... felt that the song was nice and listened to it over and over again. Surfed till my stomache went grumbling. Juz added noodles to a "pot" of soup and ate. That's my lunch liao. Went off for school at 12+.

Suddenly 74 is filled wif people in the afternoon. I expected the journey to be a very smooth one manx. But nope. I can't sleep on the bus as well. SIgh... The afternoon was hot. Reached school and was like damned exhausted due to the hot weather. Shifted the follow spot to the convention center. It's always a huge task shifting the follow spot. And guess it requires some endurance as well. Hmm... For the first time i saw that the convention center was quite wide and empty. haha.. .Guess it's becoz of the shiftin of the seats. Damned spacious. Went up to the control room after that. MY slacking time started then. WOW... then there was an opera singer. All of us were like stunned. Hmm... she's realli good at it. She was like so far away from the mic. Yet... she was so clear. WOW...

After the rehearsal, went to mac wif PSP people for dinner. haha... Well, chatted for quite a bit. Even talked abt our secondary sch days. haha... Funny sia. Tmr gonna be the actual awards nite event. Hope all goes smoothly and well tmr. Gonna take a break now.

._"The distance... 距离..."_.

My full day of work today. hmm... Was a bit sick yesterdae. In fact today wasn't feeling that good as well. Snoozed the alarm all the way till 9.40 today. I think i could hav slept till 10 if no one woke me up. haha... Juz rushed off to work after a cup of hot milo. Knew that counter 3 today's gonna be a difficult task. There will be lots of people buying teacher's day gift. hmm... There were gifts like flowers and cups. Nicely arranged. There wasn't much people in the morning until the afternoon. I was like packing items non stop in the afternoon till the extend that my hands are like shivering till now. hmm... I got back my 2pm eating slot today. haha... Lunch was at the interchange. Ordered and ordered till i didn't know that i am eating 3 meat and rice. haha... LOL...

Was damned full after the lunch. Gosh there were really lots of people buying gifts. Non stop of queues and queues. Think everyone was like knowing that i damned tired liao. haha... My voice was like suddenly weird at 5pm. hmm... not my usual voice. Think i hav been using my voice non stop for like hours and furthermore i am like a bit sick? Juz continued working. Then the commotion came in the evening. Oi lian accused me of calling customers to pay at her counter instead of mine? i was like HUH. I have neva done that for like since i work as cashier. I will admit if i did that. But i didn't, how to admit? Gosh. I am so innocent.

Nothing much during closing except me going around wif a ladder taking down several posters. Coz today was the last day of promotion. Am damned tired now. Tmr will hav to go to sch for a rehearsal for some awards nite. hmm... wat a busy schedule i am havin. But hmm... can still sleep late tmr.

._|"一人忙碌的生活会不会让自己忘记一些事..."|_.

25/08/06 Friday

It's a friday today. My first out of 3 consecutive workin days. Supposed to work in counter 3 today. But came out to help Multi Media wif some promo stuffs. Sometimes i am weird. I rather hav a lot of things to do rather than slackin ard. Well, that's me. Did some re-arranging of the stocks in front due to some reasons. Pasted stickers for items that are on promotion. Hmm... Felt a bit guilty though coz didn't opened my counter. Got loads of stuffs to do for multi media. Until abt 1+ i opened my counter due to a long queue. I think in total for whole day i onli opened my counter for abt 3 hours. LOL...

Looked for some titles of cds at night. Some are quite difficult to find. Coz the titles on the piece of paper that i am given had missing characters. haha... I think i had to use my memory to think thru the titles. Went off to throw rubbish alone as well. Didn't hav that much rubbish also, so didn't wan to bother other people. Today wasn't that tiring at all. Went to the taxi stand to wait for zack. haha... he's transferring a TV set here LOL... wif a trolley somemore. But he went off after he passed the TV to me. There was another surprise as well... LOL... i am in T&A liao... hmmm...

26/08/06 Saturday

hmm... sick today liao... Worked till ard 2pm then went home. Cleared a long queue before i went off. That added on to my headache. I could feel a fever coming. But i knew that i will be ok after some rest. Went home and immediately went to my bed. Woke up at 6.30pm. Took my dinner. Went back to work after that coz i felt that i am ok. They didn't hav enough people also. Yep, so went back. Phew... all was smooth...
Gonna prepare for my full workin day tmr. Gonna sleep early.

hmm... went out for the whole day tdy. Woke up at 9 today. Met duncan at 10 at mrt stn for k box at suntec. hmm... haven't been there before yet. Think it's about the same as the other k box. Sang a lot of songs today. Erm... didn't realli like my voice at the start. Guess my voice realli nids some warm up before it can reach a high. haha... Started wif ri ri ye ye. haha... Actually should hav sang the song a bit later. I realli nid to find a song that can warm my voice up. Wanted to start wif zui jing, but erm... dunno why dun hav sia. Remembered that the clementi k box had tt song. Sang some songs tt i didn't realli sing successfully in previous k box sessions. Some can be realli challenging. Looking forward to the next k box session.

hmm... Didn't realli noe where to go after that. Went back to SK to meet RP. Was said yesterdae to meet at city hall. But think that plan had to change thanks to people not answering phone calls in the morning. haiz... no choice. Decided to go bukit timah instead. Played a bit of pool and went for pizza hut. Months since i last ate pizza hut. Worked onli one day so far this week. hmm... Realli nid to work liao. 4 of us. So ordered the "family" feast? hmm... one BBQ chicken and hawaiian supreme pizzas. Had the summer vegetable soup. Added loads of pepper to it. Nice sia. The pizzas were damned nice also. Wished that i could hav more pizzas.

Reached home onli at 10.30. Realli tired now. Nid sleep. Tmr working at counter 3. Is it gonna be boring? haiz... No choice gotta work.

Woohoo... wat a smooth day i went through. But was like quite tired since i slept at 2.30am. Almost reached POP late today. 10.45 on the dot. Everyone was like so busy preparing for tmr's visit. haha... From cleaning shelves to rearranging stuffs. There were onli two counters open today. Me at counter one. haha... My preferred counter. LOL... Been damned busy inside counter today doing spring cleaning? hmm... juz bringing down the signboards and clean. Clean till it shines. Erm... but dun think it will last long. LOL... Everything is goin to be dirty after a few days?

Lunch today at one and dinner at 6. Went home for dinner. Long time neva eat dinner at home when working sia. It's like almost a year? Can save quite a bit if i choose to eat at home sia. hmmm... closing time. That's the main topic of the day. First time i do painting? erm... if i am not wrong it's the 1st time? neva did painting b4. Paint on the walls outside the receiving room. Every one can see that i can a 1st timer. Wif my lousy skills and slow speed. Some even said that i am like doing artwork. haha... my art not bad de leh. But long time neva do liao. All onli finished at 11.30pm. Damned tiring day. It's counter one and i am doing painting till 11.30pm. hmm... I am going to hav an off day tmr. haha... No one even told me that i am havin an off day tmr. I tot i will be workin for five days. K box tmr. Wat songs to sing...

._"我走的路..."_.

Sat two hours in front of my laptop to create this blog skin. haha... from a plain page. LOL... Finally i am successful. Hav been wondering how to do it for the past few months and now i succeeded. Tmr... Erm wait... it's nw 1.45AM. Can say later going back to work again. hmm... i realli hope tt all goes well again. Hope my entry tonight will be a good one then. Will edit some stuffs on this blog skin tonight also. Now i juz feel like goin to sleep. LOL...

It's been two years since i went on this job. All the holidays that i worked so far have been very smooth. I think it didn't this time. I hav made my final decision liao. A lot of reasons behind my decision. But when will it be. Hmm... I juz dun feel like blogging abt yesterdae. I was damned pissed. I was juz thinking. If i am unhappy in this environment, why bother to stay and add on to my stress. Have been damned stress these days.

Woke up at 12.30 today sia. Dong mian. LOL... Nothing much to do since i woke up. Watched some parts of a movie and started to blog. Sent out a mail to find out more abt a web project which i was told abt weeks ago. But still no reply. Juz hoping the reply to be a good one. Thinking abt tt, maybe i should juz go brush up on my dreamweaver skills? It's been some time since i last used? Maybe soon bah. Tmr goin see chinese doc again. hmm... So when will be the time to do it.

Two days of rest daes and yet so much thinkings to do. hmm... Does a change of charater in a person affect wat the person do. Or is it his or her thinkings that affects what the person does. Big question.

._"态度的大转变是否代表我已变了?..."_.

Snoozing and snoozing. That's wat i did when my alarm sounded at 9 today. Snoozed all the way till 9.15. Damned tired. I nid more sleep. But i think i can't sleep any longer. Goona be in counter 1 today, which means i nid some early preparations. haha... Onli reached work at 10. Got a shock in the morning. hmm... dunno wat happened yesterdae. Luckily got count properly. Phew... Or else... Lucily arh. The morning was quite smooth, all the way till the afternoon. There was a competition at the first level i guess. Quite crowded bah. Maybe that's why so many people?

All went very smoothly until 5+. My machine printer suddenly breakdown. Wah... sianz... Do until got rhythm liao. And it's the peak period as well. I still hav 3 or 4 customers behind sia. A long queue formed at counter 2. Hav to keep on directing people sia. Reminded me of a scenario sia. LOL... I was asked to go for my dinner at 7, but my machine still not functioning.

My machine was onli up at 8.30. So can say my counter was closed for 3 hours plus? LOL... Was quite afraid that i will hav problems during closing. But it went all smoothly sia. I think today was juz a plain working day. Noth much to say abt. TMr gonna be more boring? hmmm... I nid a long break...

17/08 Thursday

I think i am starting to prefer to work as cashier after my smooth and great day today. haha... At least i didn't erupt today. Not much people until one or two periods which i didn't open my counter and queues started to form at counter 1. But after i go in 5 mins, confirm will be gone. Nothing much for this entry actually except some funny stuffs. Firstly, was during dinner. Maggie and Gan asked me to help them get dinner? I was like ok? Juz tell me wat u wan and i try to get it? But... The problem is here. They hav been arguing for like hours on wat to eat and still no idea? Wah... WTH... Then i ended up the one thinking. Clue: Juz get sth spicy. In the end, i juz bought everything spicy lor. As simple. Wat's so difficult abt tt. Sambal Fried Rice and Mee goreng. haha...

Second incident at night during closing. Yvonne left her phone lying ard. hmm... on the cupboard? Then they were like trying to hide the phone. Gan suddenly said, yvonne will surely come out find. Was counting my coins. Then she suddenly walked towards my direction. So accurate sia. Worse still, the phone was on vibration mode? hmm... Will the phone be found if no one sees it?

18/08 Friday

Started to think abt the past today. Remembered that i had this special fren whom i grew up together wif when i was young. It's been years since i last talked to her. Still remembered that we argued over a book? Thanks to her who drawed my book. That were juz arguments when we were young. Coming to think of it, quite childish. But at times, u will wan to talk to someone whom u grew up together wif.It's been years since i talked to her? haha wat will we talk abt if we see each other one day again. LOL...

Met az, vic and rp at AMK today. Initially wanted to meet at 10.30. I reached at 10.35 but no one there yet? WAH... All slept at 2.30 yesterdae. Had a lengthy conversation yesterdae. In the end still went back to the same old plan. Imagine having a reply each time after 5 mins. Dragging all the way till 2.30. Almost dozed off right in front of my laptop.

Played pool first. hmmm... all real rusty liao bah. All the first few calls can't get in. But as time went by, we were back to normal. Shu neng shen qiao. But the shu is onli for an hour? haha... Gathering together wif them was always damned crappy. Az and vic already booked for driving lessons sia. Wondering when's mine. Dun think will be tt fast.

Seoul garden after tt. Was wondering how the coffee chicken taste like. Didn't even giv it a try also. Vic lasted longest sia. I onli lasted 2nd longest. Actually could hav gone for more, but think drink too much water. From ice blended grape to erm... Mango juice. Then somemore still ate fried rice. Not full also full liao.

Went for my run in the evening. Starting to build up my stamina. Ran 3 rounds ard my area. think should be ard 2-3 km? or 4? No idea. Neva use measuring tape. Remembered my previous experience when i ran a few days back. Almost blacked out. That time onli ran one and half round. Today 3 rounds. Muz keep on increase.

Tmr gonna be back working counter again. My preferred job. I might be goin to expo to work for a few days? hmmm not a bad environment as well. But i will juz hav to wake up earlier. Lookin forward to tmr.

._|"一人的快乐只有自己感觉得到..."|.

Wonder why i woke up once today at 4.30am. hmm... Also forgot. Think i juz went to the toliet and then Zzzz. Went back to sleep again. Slept all the way until 10.45 coz today not working. Realli nid one day to cool myself down. Working sometimes realli can make me boil. Argh... It's been a long time since i last eat at home. Working four days consecutive without dinner at home. Definitely missed home cooked food. Ate lunch and dinner at home today. Maybe home cooked food was realli better.

Went to chinatown today wif my mum. Kinda walked ard. Quite boring bah. But at least better than staying home and sleep for the whole day? Well gonna be this short post for today. TMr gonna go back to work again. Hope all goes well again. But.. i dunno...

._|"全新的自己..."|_.

For the past few days, my mood wasn't that good. Not being myself. Sorry if i affected anyone. But today, I am BACK. It's like i am the new me. Totally different i guess, frm the mood and thinkings i had a few days back. haha... Gonna change myself for the better. Yep... My fourth day of work today. Not bad bah. At least i am not alone in text dept. Was wif choy teng today. haha... I guess my colleagues realli lightened up my mood. By a lot? Thanks manx. Maybe without them, I am still the tired and restless me. The funny incidents today are like gosh. Happening. That's one word to describe everything. In the morning, there was this incident where RP say the wrong thing? haha... hmm... I guess misunderstandings juz happen like tt. When u say sth and u're short of a word. That's gonna be chaotic. I think the incident in the morning was a good example.

Well since, i am in such a good mood today. I dun think i will talk abt those irritating stuffs at work. Today will be a day that i will write and read the good stuffs. Not the bad ones. haha...

._|"黑夜的来临, 我闭上双眼. 希望张开眼睛时, 只看到那道曙光."|_.

Argh.. damned pissed off. Realli pissed off wif everything now. Why hav my mood changed so much for the past few days. Or hav i changed? I am no longer the JX wif lots of patience. I think i hav realli changed a lot over the week. Thinkings and actions. No longer the old JX. I dun like the way i am behaving. What can i do? Why can't the people juz do simple stuffs on their own? I shouldn't hav worried that much about wat they are doing manx. Alright, my fault. I shouldn't hav bothered abt all the stuffs. Next time it's gonna be none of my business. I juz wan to go back to the old me.

hmm... wonder if there are programming jobs out there where i can take up. It will realli take some time finding another job. But i guess my next job i will wan is an office environment. Maybe that's where i realli wanna work in. I hav worked in an office environment for four months. I noe wat it is like. haha... It's not easy to find one. Sorry, my outburst today was uncontrollable.

Woke up in the morning at 9. Should hav slept till 10 but due to some stuffs that i didn't do yesterdae, i hav to wake up damned early. Luckily anida was working today or else i am like no one to talk to? And KY coming in at 1? All the people working are like people that i seldom talk to. A lot of people are not working today bah. It's juz me takin charge of text. Erm... Thumbs up to the text people yesterdae for keeping the dept so neat. haha... The dept now a bit messy liao? Coz i am like one person working and i hav no time to pack. Will try to pack tmr. Tmr gonna be another though day. hmm.. Lunch was at banquet and dinner was at KFC. Was talking over work when at KFC wif anida today bah. hmm.. sometimes it juz feels better to pour it out rather than keeping it to urself. It realli works.

I was damned pissed during closing. If u're the one who is the last to use the PC, u should hav shut it down. WTH... why ask me to go outside and check if the desktop is off. It's ur job, not mine. Next time i won't even bother a bit. I totally agree wif the others.

结局

坐在空荡的房里 只有电视传来的童话
不停地猜测
每个段落的结尾是什么 每个故事的结局又是如何
脑海不知不觉 浮现了许多画面

不相信这些结局
相信这些只是画家在脑海里的作品
否认自己所看到的一切
想起自己的故事
幻想是什么 表情如何透露

那年的我们 想拥有同样的结局
但你选择了离开 分头走下这段路
活在两个世界的我们
就好像是第一次见面的陌生人
你变了吗?
只想回到那夏天的我
好自私 不善良
让你自由的我
只好静静离开我们共同的世界

你已开始找到你要的结局
一段漫长的时间 得到这分记忆
一瞬间 我们的故事也应该停止

My 2nd day of my consecutive four days of work. I realli hate myself these few days. Definitely, this was not the real JX. Perhaps the phrase is correct, 男人不流泪. COunter 2 today. The position not right ah. COunter 2 is more for left handers. But i think my colleagues ddefinitely cheered me up quite a bit even though they did not know wat happened. haha... During lunchtime, ate wif RP. He asked me a question. He was quite observant i muz say. haha... I thought of a solution to the problem right in the morning. Though it was difficult and i might even suffer, maybe i might try it. But... i dunno. Realli confused abt things. Argh, dun wanna think abt it. Makes me even more confused. Maybe i should juz enjoy my life now? But will it be damned empty.

I think today there was much more people than yesterdae. Today's counter 2 is like the job at counter 1 yesterdae. haha... Perhaps people will get out more on sundays? I wonder. hmm... All went quite smoothly? The things i do are almost like keep repeating? Except some stonings sometimes, but i will juz go back naturally wif my work. Was quite attentive. haha... Dinner was MAC. Juz few days back, i had eaten so much MAC at KAP. Today MAC again? LOL. No la... juz missed the filet o fish. It's onli me and RP, coz des need to do homework? Then the funny stuffs came. When coming back from my counter, i pulled back the door and i saw a bag. hmm... nothin wrong wif a bag hanging on a door. BUT... the weirdest things was a tortoise drawn on a piece of paper and pasted on the bag. Thought that that muz be either li wei or oi lian. Then tdy li wei not workin. COnfirm muz be oi lian liao. Then after that when i went back to the counter. Oi lian told me that it's vickie. hmm... OH PLS... since when tortoise is red colour de. No chance to say all these craps today coz i am not myself. haha...

Closing was super high today. Wif des dancing to a broom to the tune of jing hua lun? gosh... all super high. If onli i can be so high, that is onli i am drunk. But impossible, i can't drink alcohol de. Allergic to alcohol. haha... GOin off to rest liao. Third day of work tmr.

公主已会到了宫里, 过着幸福的生活. 做骑士的只能祝福还是祝福. 她已到了王子身边, 这位骑士却很无奈. 坐在空荡的操场上拿着吉他. 好想为她弹着那么一首歌. 但这首歌始终是一封寄不到的信. 弹着这首歌,他不知不觉想起了那段日子. 那段帮公主逃离一切的那段日子, 那段和她游玩的日子. 这些日子并没有一个值得纪念的一天, 但他已深深感受到了快乐. 那段日子, 公主也不禁想起了往事. 看着公主无奈的表情, 自己也不禁感到不知所措. 只能安慰还是安慰, 希望她会早些看见幸福的光芒. 这一天已到来. 骑士告诉自己该是时候放开了. 但经过了那段日子, 骑士能做到吗?　找了好几个办法．也许该静静地离开公主的世界．

Juz came back from work. Phew... TIring day. Erm wait... guess should erase tt. Should be a slacking day. Ya... Weekend today seems like a friday to me. Woke up today and told myself to get back to my normal self. Due to sth that happened yest night. Ya, she's right. Although i seem laughing away, but inside me it's in serious state. But i juz hope to get over wif it. I juz dun like the way i am behaving today. Kept laughing when inside i am not. What's wif me... Can't i juz let go? Some things juz cannot be explained. I kept on going in a daze today. The others added more weight to my mood. Haiz... I juz kept on denying. Maybe i will juz bury all the troubles wif my work. The next 3 days i will be workin, except wednesday. Juz gonna stress myself wif all the work. No work, find work. Yep, that's what i am goin to do. Enough of tt, hmm... let me go back to today.

I think nothing much happened in the morning. I still went on being myself wif a smile on my face doing cashier. (cashiers muz smile more.) haha... Erm all lasted till lunchtime. Went interchange to da bao. Then there was this commotion when i went to buy drinks at the stall at the near the interchange. Argument between a guy and a gal. I juz went in to get my drink. Hack care, my mood wasn't tt good as well. They better not get on my nerves. Then li wei was saying, " so yong gan ar? still dare to go in." Arugument is their problem.

I think afternoon was very slack bah. Juz noth much. RP came over to ask me why i am staring into space. Juz answered him no customers now bah. haha.. But overall i am still ok bah. Juz laughing ard. hehe... That's me bah. Although i hav troubles, i will still be smiling. Have people ever wondered if one is unhappy, the others will be affected as well? I juz dun wan tt to happen. Juz wan to bring smiles to everyone. So yep. That's me.

Yoshinoya for dinner at night. RP damned sad today due to someone not workin. haha... Keep on smiling away. LOL... Then we were treated to coke at night. Wonder wat's the occasion but i juz drink bah. haha... I didn't short today. Glad tt i hav divided my work and my other stuffs. Phew... I juz hope that tmr will be a good one. 今天好, 明天一定会更好...

|._"我是不是应该从你的世界静静离开..."_.|

hmm... it was almost eat, sleep and play today. haha... But sleep was 1/2 of my day today. I realli lacked a lot of sleep these few days. Juz delighted to be hibernating today. My mum was asking:" HUH? you going sleep again?" Ya, i realli got no choice. The next four days i am workin. haha... Still can't break my previous record of working six days straight. Think that was almost a year back liao. Was asked if i wanted to go punggol plaza in the morning. I admit that i was damned lazy now liao. And i wan to go for my run in the evening.

My sleeping times went from 1-3 then 4-6. Shiok. Now i got enough energy to face possible challenges. Especially when i am workin counter 1 tmr and counter 2 on sunday. hmm... Went for my run in the evening though i noe i was feeling hungry. I realli tot that i can take it. I was wrong. Ran two rounds around my area and i realli feel like fainting liao. Relaxed a while about 15 mins before i went back to normal. And i noe i almost blacked out. i struggled all the way to econ to get H2O. Think at least can retrieve energy to go back home. At least my estimation was correct bah.

Sort of relaxing at nite. Listening to songs and creating this entry. hmm... wat's installed for tmr.

._"这次会不会像上次的经历一样?"_.

Argh... damned tired of everything today. Think I am realli getting sick of everything. Went back to work today and I think i was at lost of wat i should do today. Everything was like goin all wrong for me. I juz can't stand it when i hav nothin to do. Time juz passes by slowly. Walked to work today coz my concession juz ended yesterdae. Brisk walking coz i was quite early. Still got 20 mins to work. Was quite tired after yesterdae's PH counter 1. And i juz didn't hav enough sleep. I yawning and sneezing all the way today. Took charge of the chinese dept today. I think i realli should thank the people workin yesterdae for packin the dept so neatly. hmm... Realli neat, all books are in perfect position. So went to help Text dept wif the packin instead. Took charge of two depts actually in the morning coz li wei comin at 2. Didn't noe that today's a holiday for primary sch and secondary sch. Until they told me. But i think the crowd wasn't that much today bah. Went off for lunch at 1. Curry chicken noodles. Think not enough coconut milk, quite watery bah.

hmm... there seems to be loads of troubles goin ard. haiz... DUnno bah... i wonder wat has been happening. Why are there so many troubles recently. Argh. Simple things why they can't juz understand simple stuffs. I think i am erupting today liao. Or else my entry today won't be like tt. Haiz... DUn say liao... Full of fire today. Though i hav been smiling away, i hav been damned pissed. THis other side of me juz dun come out quite often, unless i hav accumulated all angers. But this is juz wat i wan to say.

hmm... i might be handed a website project for me to work on, which is not confirmed yet. it's a school project but i wasn't given any details yet. Juz hope that the person will contact me soon.

._|"为什么对你舍不的人是我"|_.

01 August Tuesday

hmmm... for these two days, my posts are always after 12. Thanks to my school's national day rehearsals. Haha... I think today's routine was pretty much the same as yesterdae. Woke up late at 11 again today. Started to do my FYP presentation after that. haha... Though it's still days away frm my presentation, i still nid to prepare myself both mentally and "technically" for the presention. 要拼才会赢 LOL...

hmm.. hav to keep eating chinese medicines. Argh... nvm... juz do wat i am told to do so. But hope erm... It will onli be good not bad. haha... Left at 4.30 for the rehearsals today. I think the rehearsal today was pretty slack except that i ran quite a lot. Hmm... can feel that it's been a long time since i last exercised bah. I realli nid to run liao. But still sometimes i damned lazy. haha.. Will hav to go to the office and prepare for my demo for friday. Then i will hav to rush back to sch to do some sound editing. Then to meet vickie to help her in her project. haha.. Can't sleep late tmr liao.

31/07 Monday

hmm... nothin much in the morning except woke up at 11.30. It's been a long time since i had such a nice sleep manx. Got out of bed and was told that there's rice dumplings for breakfast. haha... Thanks to my mum. Yest went compass and buy. LOL... Long time neva eat rice dumpling liao bah. Come to think of it quite nice bah. Totally enjoyed it. Then my mum said that next time it's me who buy for her? o.0 OF coz..

Was having lunch and looking at vb codes at the same time. hmm... Didn't finish as well coz was damned full after rice dumpling. Maybe i juz can't wait for next semester to start. hmm... someone wants to eat sakae so much ah? haha... keep on say wanna treat me sakae? But no la... I help u not becoz of any rewards. But i realli feel like eating sakae sia. And i am serious...

Went for my sch's national day rehearsal. Left at 3.45 coz i need to go compass to buy stuffs at pop. Walkin into pop, saw KY liao. Asked me if i was workin today coz TEXT nobody. haha... Wanted to help but i realli can't. Need to rush off to sch liao. All realli dun believe that i goin sch. Say i confirm goin out play liao. Oh manx... my face dun look like i telling a lie wat? The rehearsal was quite smooth but shouldn't hav so many delays bah. Haiz... All onli ended at 10.30. Was quite afraid that i couldn't be in time to catch the last 161. So took 52 wif kian min instead. Then change to 156. Goin for another rehearsal tmr and maybe do my FYP presentation.